I know I’m not alone, I know I’m not the only one going through this, but its here and all I can do is learn to manage until the stop passes. This is how I’m dealing with postpartum anxiety.
Honestly it hasn’t been an easy road at all, but I have learned to manage, take me time and be able to deal with the storm overhead. I really never thought it can happen to me (that’s what everyone says) but it did. The first two-three months with IV were a breeze, I have my perfect little baby, supportive family and husband. Everyone has been such a big help when it comes to being here to help in any way. My mom often comes over to help me clean and my sister come pretty frequently to help with IV and Jimmie’s family is always willing to help in any way. It began when it was time to return to work.
The final month of my maternity leave is when it hit the hardest, my anxiety hit an all time high, and I began to get depressed at the thought of returning to my full time job. I’ve had a thought of hurting him but I just began to get sad over the smallest things and then upset that I was sad about the little things.
This went on for weeks and I finally decided I needed to do SOMETHING, anything! I saw my doctor and this was when he diagnosed me with postpartum depression. Tbh, I was in shock and didn’t think that was what’s going on, but I’m glad I did catch it when I did and began to work on things to help. My doctor did tell me that there is no “timeframe” as to how long it will last but we began working on a plan to help.
- Ask for help (this one was hard for me): As a new mom this can be hard, but one thing I wanted was to only ask for help when I really needed it. I work full time but also run this blog as my side hustle that I have been working on growing. I never wanted to ask for the help when it came to getting things done, whether that was to run errands or to just have a few hours to get things done. I honestly felt bad for asking for help and felt that I was asking for too much and didn’t want to be a burden on others. But it’s ok to ask for help, and I have done that.
- Pamper yourself/ enjoy me time: This is another one that I learned to do. It’s one thing to take time to get things done around the house along with work but also taking to me time to relax and get my mind right. I have a facial and message planned for my near future, but I’ve gone to the nail shop this past month. Sitting in a message chair while getting your nails and feet done works wonders. Although I still love my press-on nails a trip to the nail salon here and there always works wonders.
- Take medication: I didn’t want to, but I had to. I began taking medication once I saw my doctor. We have adjusted it a few times, but it is now working great! I do still have some moments but certainly not like they were before.
- Enjoy the little moments: every little moment of pure happiness I take that in and just enjoy it. I don’t want this to be the thing I remember most about IV growing up. . . and he is growing fast! I can’t believe he is about to be 6 months in the next week, so all the little moments I have with him is what counts.